Ah that time of year again...Christmas, the season to be jolly - apparently.
Except the past few christmases, I've just not quite been bitten with the holiday bug. Sure I enjoy myself, I see friends and family, go out and about, have a good time etc. But.... it's not something which I'm overly excited about. Long gone are the days when I would clocking down the days until it all happens, sure I kind of do now but its not the same. Namely now when I'm looking towards christmas, its more for the days off work than anything else, the ability to relax and rest up for a few extra days - always a good thing.
The main problems I have I suppose is the fact that it is so overly hyped and highlighted that by the time it actually gets here, I'm virtually sick of it. The media has got a lot to answer for in that respect. I mean, how absolutely fundamentally ridiculous is it when you see christmas stock in shops and being advertised in Sept/Oct time? Absolutely mental! The papers and TV also cannot help but highlight it, the age old countdown of shopping days left to christmas, the entire X Factor campaign designed to rig the christmas number one as much as they can possibly do with an over glorified karaoke contest winner obiliterating someones song AGAIN, shows dedicated to what to buy/cook/do for the big day sheesh - calm down honestly.
Maybe its a case that I'm just "too old for this shit" (at the grand old age of 29 no doubt. The magic and joy of christmas fades away with time admittedly but I don't know. I guess that in the next few years when (hopefully) I'll be lucky enough to have a partner and children, that the magic will restart itself, that christmas will be resusicated and saved by the fact that I'll be in a position where I can see the joy in the eyes of my nearest and dearest. In the meantime however it looks like its bah bloody humbug though!!!
Sunday, 18 December 2011
Monday, 28 November 2011
Fallen Star
I have had a recent moment of creativity (and presumably boredom too!) and have crafted the below poem. It is as the heading suggests entitled, Fallen Star - enjoy.
Everything seemed so brilliant
Everything seemed so right
Now the wool is off my eyes
And I can see the light
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
I didn't know before
But now I can see you for what you really are
Regardless of all that has happened
I'm not all that downbeat
For I can see that under it all
You have the potential to be lovely and sweet
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Everything which has happened
Is really quite bizarre
You'll shine again one day
Of which I have no doubt
All it takes is for you
To finally sort yourself out
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Someday we'll see your light
Shine again from afar
Everything seemed so brilliant
Everything seemed so right
Now the wool is off my eyes
And I can see the light
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
I didn't know before
But now I can see you for what you really are
Regardless of all that has happened
I'm not all that downbeat
For I can see that under it all
You have the potential to be lovely and sweet
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Everything which has happened
Is really quite bizarre
You'll shine again one day
Of which I have no doubt
All it takes is for you
To finally sort yourself out
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Someday we'll see your light
Shine again from afar
Sunday, 20 November 2011
Everything Changes
It appears that my life is spinning into a mass of potential change over the next few weeks/months. A lot of this is my doing admittedly, I'm not in complainy mode or anything, just means that everything is a bloody blur.
First main thing which is coming up very soon is that there has been a massive reshuffle going on at work which appears to be potentially throwing up new opportunities for me (finally). The only issue I have is that there is every chance of going through interviews and more bloody interviews. I detest interviews with a passion. They irritate me, especially when I'm already in an organisation and I'm being interviewed by people who will have known my skill set and how I work and operate anyhow. I understand that this is necessity in terms of to make it fair and all that garb, but it's kind of aggravating in so many respects too. If it's already proven and shown for months/years just what you are capable of, surely it shouldn't boil down to just an hour or two of yapping? Of course my viewpoint may change immensely if I happen to bag a good role from it, but still!!
My last job had exactly the same way of working but in a much worse fashion. They employed rolling temps constantly and offered on a rare basis full company contracts, but you had to go through an elongated interview process to prove that you were capable of doing EXACTLY THE SAME job as you already were......just plain bizarre to me! We shall just have to see with this exactly how things go.
Second main thing is moving out. I live 30 miles ish away from my workplace and have to commute in every day, not the best thing in the world. I am very likely to finally be moving into Norwich and therefore save on the constant commuting in the new year. I am massively looking forward to this, not only as a time saving utility but also as more and more of my life seems to revolving around the city and it will be fantastic to be in amongst it all.
In addition, I am due to move in with a really good friend of mine who I have known for well over a year now care of my job. I know that some people may find it strange that I would move out and into a place with a female friend, I know that some people's immediate thought process is a nudge nudge wink wink scenario. This couldn't be further from the truth, my friend Emma is exactly that and that alone, a friend and a bloody good one at that. Sometimes good friends are hard to find, but with respect to her, I'm glad that I have her in my life along with so many other great people too. I count my lucky stars that I do have each day!
Besides, I'm kind of seeing someone anyway, who with any luck and a massive fingers crossed on it, will work out for me and I'll be a happy bouncy person as a result. She seems really great so far from what I can see and I can only hope that she sees things the same about me. It's very very early days and taking it very slowly, but if the result is good at the end then its definitely worth the wait :-)
So like I say, nothing along those lines at all. I'm just grateful for the opportunity of being able to move in with someone who I get along with, I know well and whom I can trust. Those kind of opportunities are few and far between and need to be snapped up if and when they come about.
The last main changing aspect of my life is that I'm currently in the process of getting the ol' driving license sorted out. Its never been something that I've ever really needed, much as though that surprises people. Yes, I commute in to work, but over the years I have saved over half of what I would shell out for if I was driving in. But now I've come to the conclusion, that I'm 30 next year, it's best to just get it out of the way. I may not bother getting a car or anything straight away, cos again frankly there isn't the need for it, but to have the license gives me flexibility.
I am nervous as hell over....well basically all these changes. They will benefit me immensely granted, but its nerve wracking to have so much going on all at once. Three big potential life defining changes all due to come through in the next handful of months and whilst still balancing everything else too.....hence blurry mindness!!!!
First main thing which is coming up very soon is that there has been a massive reshuffle going on at work which appears to be potentially throwing up new opportunities for me (finally). The only issue I have is that there is every chance of going through interviews and more bloody interviews. I detest interviews with a passion. They irritate me, especially when I'm already in an organisation and I'm being interviewed by people who will have known my skill set and how I work and operate anyhow. I understand that this is necessity in terms of to make it fair and all that garb, but it's kind of aggravating in so many respects too. If it's already proven and shown for months/years just what you are capable of, surely it shouldn't boil down to just an hour or two of yapping? Of course my viewpoint may change immensely if I happen to bag a good role from it, but still!!
My last job had exactly the same way of working but in a much worse fashion. They employed rolling temps constantly and offered on a rare basis full company contracts, but you had to go through an elongated interview process to prove that you were capable of doing EXACTLY THE SAME job as you already were......just plain bizarre to me! We shall just have to see with this exactly how things go.
Second main thing is moving out. I live 30 miles ish away from my workplace and have to commute in every day, not the best thing in the world. I am very likely to finally be moving into Norwich and therefore save on the constant commuting in the new year. I am massively looking forward to this, not only as a time saving utility but also as more and more of my life seems to revolving around the city and it will be fantastic to be in amongst it all.
In addition, I am due to move in with a really good friend of mine who I have known for well over a year now care of my job. I know that some people may find it strange that I would move out and into a place with a female friend, I know that some people's immediate thought process is a nudge nudge wink wink scenario. This couldn't be further from the truth, my friend Emma is exactly that and that alone, a friend and a bloody good one at that. Sometimes good friends are hard to find, but with respect to her, I'm glad that I have her in my life along with so many other great people too. I count my lucky stars that I do have each day!
Besides, I'm kind of seeing someone anyway, who with any luck and a massive fingers crossed on it, will work out for me and I'll be a happy bouncy person as a result. She seems really great so far from what I can see and I can only hope that she sees things the same about me. It's very very early days and taking it very slowly, but if the result is good at the end then its definitely worth the wait :-)
So like I say, nothing along those lines at all. I'm just grateful for the opportunity of being able to move in with someone who I get along with, I know well and whom I can trust. Those kind of opportunities are few and far between and need to be snapped up if and when they come about.
The last main changing aspect of my life is that I'm currently in the process of getting the ol' driving license sorted out. Its never been something that I've ever really needed, much as though that surprises people. Yes, I commute in to work, but over the years I have saved over half of what I would shell out for if I was driving in. But now I've come to the conclusion, that I'm 30 next year, it's best to just get it out of the way. I may not bother getting a car or anything straight away, cos again frankly there isn't the need for it, but to have the license gives me flexibility.
I am nervous as hell over....well basically all these changes. They will benefit me immensely granted, but its nerve wracking to have so much going on all at once. Three big potential life defining changes all due to come through in the next handful of months and whilst still balancing everything else too.....hence blurry mindness!!!!
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Immersed In Music
I went to a gig last night, it was for a band known as Turisas. Most people will not know of them or heard any of their music, but I was watching them and it got me thinking, thinking about music and its impact on me and my life as a whole.
I have a huge variety of music loves, there are a lot which tread into the heavier end of the spectrum and a lot which go the other way too.
In terms of the heavier end of the spectrum, this goes into rock, metal and many of the ranges within this field. A lot of people have dubbed this as loud and aggressive and I've even had it coined to me as scary music. Its interesting to note different peoples concepts and ideas when it comes down to music, especially the metal genre. I mean, why is it considered scary music? Sure its loud, sure theres shouting and screeching and screaming within it, but scary? I'm not too sure. Any music genre could be considered as scary, it's entirely a matter of perception and up to a certain degree the persons mood at the time.
I love my music and what I listen to, naturally (I'm hardly going to hate it now am I?). There are several reasons for this. It's down to the expressions which can be shown through the music itself. Sure metal for example comes across as loud and harsh and aggressive but that perception just doesn't sit with me. Areas of it yes, but contained within it are expressions of love, hate, happiness, ecstasy, sadness and disillusionment amongst many other emotions. Dependant on my mood, I can really connect to what the music is playing and what the band are emoting.
This doesn't stay with the heavier end of the spectrum either, many different genres of music show various themes and emotions which I can connect to, it's why I love it so much. Sometimes there is nothing better to have something heavy and beat driven playing like say, Soulfly. By the same way though, there are many occasions where I can find nothing better than to be listening to music almost minimalistic in its nature and design such as the early ambient works of Aphex Twin or the trance based works of Sasha or Deadmau5. Hell I even own Dido and The Cranberries in my collection amongst many others, like I say I have music tastes which are diverse as anything.
The one thing here is that I don't conform to the normal standard of liking a brand of music and thats it. Some people do and that is fine, but for me I like to branch out and get a taster for other areas too. This does however mean that in terms of conformity, what people see and view of me differs to what is generally considered to be the look for a genre. Example in point, most people to look at me would not immediately think that I liked metal music whatsoever, namely as I have no tattoos or piercings, my hair is short etc. This isn't to deride those who do look like that by any means, some cool people I know have what would be considered to be the atypical look of someone into that style of music. The same applies to other genres too.
But I quite like that though. I quite like the fact that I don't conform to the social norms, the fact that people will be and have been taken by surprise at what I'm listening to at any time. Its what I am, I'm not anything else other than just me.
I have a huge variety of music loves, there are a lot which tread into the heavier end of the spectrum and a lot which go the other way too.
In terms of the heavier end of the spectrum, this goes into rock, metal and many of the ranges within this field. A lot of people have dubbed this as loud and aggressive and I've even had it coined to me as scary music. Its interesting to note different peoples concepts and ideas when it comes down to music, especially the metal genre. I mean, why is it considered scary music? Sure its loud, sure theres shouting and screeching and screaming within it, but scary? I'm not too sure. Any music genre could be considered as scary, it's entirely a matter of perception and up to a certain degree the persons mood at the time.
I love my music and what I listen to, naturally (I'm hardly going to hate it now am I?). There are several reasons for this. It's down to the expressions which can be shown through the music itself. Sure metal for example comes across as loud and harsh and aggressive but that perception just doesn't sit with me. Areas of it yes, but contained within it are expressions of love, hate, happiness, ecstasy, sadness and disillusionment amongst many other emotions. Dependant on my mood, I can really connect to what the music is playing and what the band are emoting.
This doesn't stay with the heavier end of the spectrum either, many different genres of music show various themes and emotions which I can connect to, it's why I love it so much. Sometimes there is nothing better to have something heavy and beat driven playing like say, Soulfly. By the same way though, there are many occasions where I can find nothing better than to be listening to music almost minimalistic in its nature and design such as the early ambient works of Aphex Twin or the trance based works of Sasha or Deadmau5. Hell I even own Dido and The Cranberries in my collection amongst many others, like I say I have music tastes which are diverse as anything.
The one thing here is that I don't conform to the normal standard of liking a brand of music and thats it. Some people do and that is fine, but for me I like to branch out and get a taster for other areas too. This does however mean that in terms of conformity, what people see and view of me differs to what is generally considered to be the look for a genre. Example in point, most people to look at me would not immediately think that I liked metal music whatsoever, namely as I have no tattoos or piercings, my hair is short etc. This isn't to deride those who do look like that by any means, some cool people I know have what would be considered to be the atypical look of someone into that style of music. The same applies to other genres too.
But I quite like that though. I quite like the fact that I don't conform to the social norms, the fact that people will be and have been taken by surprise at what I'm listening to at any time. Its what I am, I'm not anything else other than just me.
Saturday, 29 October 2011
The Second Chance Saloon
Something which I most certainly have been thinking recently is the viewpoint of the second chance, the proverbial try again option. Naturally on most things in life then of course there would be no hesitiation to do so, but on those incidents whereby you have been hurt and that, what would then be the stance?
A lot of people I know would believe that you've had your shot, thats it chance gone, see you later. Others however, and I know from seeing them, give chance after chance at the potential of being happy. It seems different people have their own perspective on the entire issue.
I have a prime example with one of my exes. I was seeing her for about a couple of months and then it went belly up, not of my doing, it just did. However a couple of months later we started seeing each other again and the relationship lasted for about two years worth. Sure not all times were good as most relationships experience, but fundamentally in my eyes, it was worth the second shot even though it ultimately came to a close.
My belief here is that up to a cetain degree, second chances are definitely worth a look. A third chance and more is entirely dependant on the scenario but fundamentally most of the time definitely not worth the hassle. If things don't work twice over, then unless a lot of things change, it won't on another go. I am more than willing to give things a second shot in the arm, to see if things can work their way out because unless you try again you'll never know. Certain things happen, go wrong and it is sad when they do, but rather than immediately shut off any chance of a "try again" I'd like to think that the door is always open for another go, to see if they can work out. After that though, there is no further door to go through, two chances and the game is up.
A lot of people I know would believe that you've had your shot, thats it chance gone, see you later. Others however, and I know from seeing them, give chance after chance at the potential of being happy. It seems different people have their own perspective on the entire issue.
I have a prime example with one of my exes. I was seeing her for about a couple of months and then it went belly up, not of my doing, it just did. However a couple of months later we started seeing each other again and the relationship lasted for about two years worth. Sure not all times were good as most relationships experience, but fundamentally in my eyes, it was worth the second shot even though it ultimately came to a close.
My belief here is that up to a cetain degree, second chances are definitely worth a look. A third chance and more is entirely dependant on the scenario but fundamentally most of the time definitely not worth the hassle. If things don't work twice over, then unless a lot of things change, it won't on another go. I am more than willing to give things a second shot in the arm, to see if things can work their way out because unless you try again you'll never know. Certain things happen, go wrong and it is sad when they do, but rather than immediately shut off any chance of a "try again" I'd like to think that the door is always open for another go, to see if they can work out. After that though, there is no further door to go through, two chances and the game is up.
Sunday, 23 October 2011
I Know What I Want, Just Not Got A Clue As How To Get It
As the title suggests, I have several things which I want, need almost if you will in my life but have no bloody clue as to how to get it.
These are not material possessions particularly, more actual aspects of my life which I deem to need, improve on etc.
One is in terms of my working life. I'm not about to slate my job or anything daft like that because for all its faults as with any job, there are some really good parts to it. This includes the people I work with or indeed have worked with over the years. I have met some truly cool people and have retained long lasting friendships as a direct result, always a bonus.
Additionally, I have the opportunity to really help and make a difference. Don't get me wrong I'm not involved with the high end of policing or something along those lines but customer services. However in terms of this, I still feel that I can make a difference in the lives of those people that I speak to and try inheritantly to do so.
The main issue which I have is that I am an ambitious person and have aspirations to do more, to be more. I'm not sure currently what the best course of action is to achieve my goals though and this leads me to become occasionally quite frustrated. Like I say, I have no issue with what I do, I just want to do more.
Another aspect of my life which I really want to change is my very personal circumstances. I have been single now since the start of the year and whilst I am content enough, I really feel that this needs to change. Don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean I'm about to rush into anything blindly and go mental in the process.
The main problem I have here is the fact that I have zero confidence in my ability to just go out and chat away to the ladies. I know full well that I'm hardly the worst looking of people or anything like that, but confidence is always a key and in a situation like being out "on the pull" as it were, I flounder. I also have absolutely no ability of reading whether someone likes me whatsoever. I have been told over the years several times lines like " That girl over there seems to quite like you, why don't you go talk to her" etc, but never ever believed it as I just cannot see the signs of this myself.
Then of course we have the fact that I seem to be susceptible to people messing me about too. Over the past few months I have had this a couple of times whereby I, as well as others are led to believe that things are fine, everything is all rosy and happy days lie ahead, only for the rug to be pulled out from under me. Not very good at all and just causes me hurt where it isn't necessary, this in turn will probably cause future issues as I'll find it difficult to trust someone else later down the line.
I'm hopeful on both parts that I can work out just how I can get what I want soon and then make the progress I need to fulfil it. Fundamentally, I don't want much from life, just to be happy and both of these areas are critical to doing this, its just a matter of how to do it thats the key.
These are not material possessions particularly, more actual aspects of my life which I deem to need, improve on etc.
One is in terms of my working life. I'm not about to slate my job or anything daft like that because for all its faults as with any job, there are some really good parts to it. This includes the people I work with or indeed have worked with over the years. I have met some truly cool people and have retained long lasting friendships as a direct result, always a bonus.
Additionally, I have the opportunity to really help and make a difference. Don't get me wrong I'm not involved with the high end of policing or something along those lines but customer services. However in terms of this, I still feel that I can make a difference in the lives of those people that I speak to and try inheritantly to do so.
The main issue which I have is that I am an ambitious person and have aspirations to do more, to be more. I'm not sure currently what the best course of action is to achieve my goals though and this leads me to become occasionally quite frustrated. Like I say, I have no issue with what I do, I just want to do more.
Another aspect of my life which I really want to change is my very personal circumstances. I have been single now since the start of the year and whilst I am content enough, I really feel that this needs to change. Don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean I'm about to rush into anything blindly and go mental in the process.
The main problem I have here is the fact that I have zero confidence in my ability to just go out and chat away to the ladies. I know full well that I'm hardly the worst looking of people or anything like that, but confidence is always a key and in a situation like being out "on the pull" as it were, I flounder. I also have absolutely no ability of reading whether someone likes me whatsoever. I have been told over the years several times lines like " That girl over there seems to quite like you, why don't you go talk to her" etc, but never ever believed it as I just cannot see the signs of this myself.
Then of course we have the fact that I seem to be susceptible to people messing me about too. Over the past few months I have had this a couple of times whereby I, as well as others are led to believe that things are fine, everything is all rosy and happy days lie ahead, only for the rug to be pulled out from under me. Not very good at all and just causes me hurt where it isn't necessary, this in turn will probably cause future issues as I'll find it difficult to trust someone else later down the line.
I'm hopeful on both parts that I can work out just how I can get what I want soon and then make the progress I need to fulfil it. Fundamentally, I don't want much from life, just to be happy and both of these areas are critical to doing this, its just a matter of how to do it thats the key.
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
The Blame Game
Why do people blame others for their failings? Why do people decide that it is beneficial to try to pick holes in someone else as opposed to reflecting at their own misgivings? This is something, which I can never understand, never comprehend. An example of this has happened to me of late.
Recently, I met someone who although I had only met a couple of times, were showing signs that things were going very well, better than that even. I had been introduced to friends and family members and even stayed over the night. Things appeared to be going down the right path, finally my life appeared to be heading in the right direction and things were working their way out for me. Yippee some would say.
Out of the blue however, this was turned on its head. The person in question firstly went down the path of stating that they could only see us as being friends and that although things had been going well, they did not know what they wanted. Fair enough, a portion of blame was admitted. This however, quickly moved to labelling things about me that they didn't like, bizarre things such as my job which fundamentally makes no difference to anything and even more importantly , they were already aware of from the very start. In fact all of the things which were listed as to what they didn't like, they knew about from the beginning. So a question which would immediately crop up is, why the change? and more over, why allow things to develop in the manner it did if there were such issues involved?
Quite evidently, it was not the list of issues which were thrown in my face which were creating any problem, something else was. What this is I could speculate for days on end, but frankly is pointless and a waste of my time and energy. What should have happened and indeed what would have been the decent thing is to have been honest, but there you go.
One magnificent quote which I also got thrown was that they felt that I was developing feelings for them too quickly. Some might say from the outset that there may be a point here, but the key argument here though is that, are you exactly surprised? If you meet someone and within a short space of time invite them round your house to stay the night and introduce them to your nearest and dearest people and generally be taking good positive things about you to those said parties, then what would you expect to see happen? Would a normal person be expected to act blaise about it all or would it perhaps be considered relatively ok for them to think "oooh this seems to be going rather well, I'm really connecting with this person and I hope that this continues" as it was.
Thing is, yes I know I can be guilty of falling too quickly for someone, but surely in some respects that is a good thing? The last thing anyone wants is someone who couldn't give a flying crap regardless of the circumstances presented in front of them surely. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I state what I think and fundamentally I'm open and honest to those around me, especially those that I plan to develop a close relationship too. Is this such a bad thing? I highly doubt it.
Recently, I met someone who although I had only met a couple of times, were showing signs that things were going very well, better than that even. I had been introduced to friends and family members and even stayed over the night. Things appeared to be going down the right path, finally my life appeared to be heading in the right direction and things were working their way out for me. Yippee some would say.
Out of the blue however, this was turned on its head. The person in question firstly went down the path of stating that they could only see us as being friends and that although things had been going well, they did not know what they wanted. Fair enough, a portion of blame was admitted. This however, quickly moved to labelling things about me that they didn't like, bizarre things such as my job which fundamentally makes no difference to anything and even more importantly , they were already aware of from the very start. In fact all of the things which were listed as to what they didn't like, they knew about from the beginning. So a question which would immediately crop up is, why the change? and more over, why allow things to develop in the manner it did if there were such issues involved?
Quite evidently, it was not the list of issues which were thrown in my face which were creating any problem, something else was. What this is I could speculate for days on end, but frankly is pointless and a waste of my time and energy. What should have happened and indeed what would have been the decent thing is to have been honest, but there you go.
One magnificent quote which I also got thrown was that they felt that I was developing feelings for them too quickly. Some might say from the outset that there may be a point here, but the key argument here though is that, are you exactly surprised? If you meet someone and within a short space of time invite them round your house to stay the night and introduce them to your nearest and dearest people and generally be taking good positive things about you to those said parties, then what would you expect to see happen? Would a normal person be expected to act blaise about it all or would it perhaps be considered relatively ok for them to think "oooh this seems to be going rather well, I'm really connecting with this person and I hope that this continues" as it was.
Thing is, yes I know I can be guilty of falling too quickly for someone, but surely in some respects that is a good thing? The last thing anyone wants is someone who couldn't give a flying crap regardless of the circumstances presented in front of them surely. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I state what I think and fundamentally I'm open and honest to those around me, especially those that I plan to develop a close relationship too. Is this such a bad thing? I highly doubt it.
Monday, 17 October 2011
I'm NOT Sylar!!!
Over the past few years, since the start of a certain cool TV show - Heroes, I keep getting people state that I look Sylar aka Zachary Quinto. Normally it would be a good thing to be compared looks wise to a celebrity who attracts a lot of attention from the opposite sex, but when the character they play just so happens to be a serial killer who steals people's abilities, it's perhaps not such a great comparison!
However, it has led me to think in a geeky childish kind of way of what ability would I want to have if I could choose, there are of course plenty to choose from...
Pyrokinesis - Set fire to stuff, well you'd never be cold I suppose but thats about it.
Invisibility - Pretty obvious, but frankly it would get tiresome quickly
Super Strength - Pretty standard, not exactly a necessity
Super Speed - Again, basic standard stuff.
For me personally, Telepathy would come close. As long as its a controlled ability and not one which makes you go stir crazy as you hear everyones thoughts! But I think it would be great, it would mean that you'd able to see what people truly thought, no shroud, no hidden agendas, no ulterior motives would be inaccessible. In todays society, there are too many people who think and feel only for themselves, if you had this ability, it would mean that you'd see straight away how that is and avoid any kind of issues later down the line.
But the winner is Intuitive Aptitude, the ability to see exactly how things work and operate. Would be absolutely incredible in my eyes to be able to see the world for exactly how it functions, you'd be able to see how everything moves and flows, every action and reaction. It would be a truly amazing thing to have. Maybe I'm not so dis-similar to Sylar after all...
However, it has led me to think in a geeky childish kind of way of what ability would I want to have if I could choose, there are of course plenty to choose from...
Pyrokinesis - Set fire to stuff, well you'd never be cold I suppose but thats about it.
Invisibility - Pretty obvious, but frankly it would get tiresome quickly
Super Strength - Pretty standard, not exactly a necessity
Super Speed - Again, basic standard stuff.
For me personally, Telepathy would come close. As long as its a controlled ability and not one which makes you go stir crazy as you hear everyones thoughts! But I think it would be great, it would mean that you'd able to see what people truly thought, no shroud, no hidden agendas, no ulterior motives would be inaccessible. In todays society, there are too many people who think and feel only for themselves, if you had this ability, it would mean that you'd see straight away how that is and avoid any kind of issues later down the line.
But the winner is Intuitive Aptitude, the ability to see exactly how things work and operate. Would be absolutely incredible in my eyes to be able to see the world for exactly how it functions, you'd be able to see how everything moves and flows, every action and reaction. It would be a truly amazing thing to have. Maybe I'm not so dis-similar to Sylar after all...
Sunday, 16 October 2011
Honesty and Integrity
Two key words, means a lot to some people and fuck all to others.
I try my best to live my life being as honest and upfront with my thoughts as possible. It antagonises me and angers me when I see people who aren't the same. Sure they have their reasons for it, for not doing so. It may be down to being scared as what others might see, it may be that by shrouding themselves, they feel more protected as a result. However, all that this serves to do is makes things worse. Why? Because then when those that they aren't being honest with, realise this, they feel hurt and may react badly, therefore 'proving' the fear to the one hiding.
I've been hurt so many times in so many different ways, but I would never dream of hiding my true self. It would be very easy for me to do, almost justifiable even, but it would invarably lead to pain to myself later on and certainly to others. Call me soft, but I want to make people happy not cause them pain.
Not being honest is hugely wrong, its selfish and is fundamentally pointless. It causes negative emotions to surface and upsets and angers people. Frankly the main point here is why would anyone want that?
I try my best to live my life being as honest and upfront with my thoughts as possible. It antagonises me and angers me when I see people who aren't the same. Sure they have their reasons for it, for not doing so. It may be down to being scared as what others might see, it may be that by shrouding themselves, they feel more protected as a result. However, all that this serves to do is makes things worse. Why? Because then when those that they aren't being honest with, realise this, they feel hurt and may react badly, therefore 'proving' the fear to the one hiding.
I've been hurt so many times in so many different ways, but I would never dream of hiding my true self. It would be very easy for me to do, almost justifiable even, but it would invarably lead to pain to myself later on and certainly to others. Call me soft, but I want to make people happy not cause them pain.
Not being honest is hugely wrong, its selfish and is fundamentally pointless. It causes negative emotions to surface and upsets and angers people. Frankly the main point here is why would anyone want that?
Saturday, 15 October 2011
Intro
Recently, I have come to the conclusion that I really need to start writing things down. I always have a ton of thoughts and feelings and think perhaps that its time to start to share those with the world around. So welcome to the world and life as I see it, enjoy!! :-)
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