I have had a recent moment of creativity (and presumably boredom too!) and have crafted the below poem. It is as the heading suggests entitled, Fallen Star - enjoy.
Everything seemed so brilliant
Everything seemed so right
Now the wool is off my eyes
And I can see the light
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
I didn't know before
But now I can see you for what you really are
Regardless of all that has happened
I'm not all that downbeat
For I can see that under it all
You have the potential to be lovely and sweet
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Everything which has happened
Is really quite bizarre
You'll shine again one day
Of which I have no doubt
All it takes is for you
To finally sort yourself out
You're my fallen angel
You're my fallen star
Someday we'll see your light
Shine again from afar
Monday, 28 November 2011
Sunday, 20 November 2011
Everything Changes
It appears that my life is spinning into a mass of potential change over the next few weeks/months. A lot of this is my doing admittedly, I'm not in complainy mode or anything, just means that everything is a bloody blur.
First main thing which is coming up very soon is that there has been a massive reshuffle going on at work which appears to be potentially throwing up new opportunities for me (finally). The only issue I have is that there is every chance of going through interviews and more bloody interviews. I detest interviews with a passion. They irritate me, especially when I'm already in an organisation and I'm being interviewed by people who will have known my skill set and how I work and operate anyhow. I understand that this is necessity in terms of to make it fair and all that garb, but it's kind of aggravating in so many respects too. If it's already proven and shown for months/years just what you are capable of, surely it shouldn't boil down to just an hour or two of yapping? Of course my viewpoint may change immensely if I happen to bag a good role from it, but still!!
My last job had exactly the same way of working but in a much worse fashion. They employed rolling temps constantly and offered on a rare basis full company contracts, but you had to go through an elongated interview process to prove that you were capable of doing EXACTLY THE SAME job as you already were......just plain bizarre to me! We shall just have to see with this exactly how things go.
Second main thing is moving out. I live 30 miles ish away from my workplace and have to commute in every day, not the best thing in the world. I am very likely to finally be moving into Norwich and therefore save on the constant commuting in the new year. I am massively looking forward to this, not only as a time saving utility but also as more and more of my life seems to revolving around the city and it will be fantastic to be in amongst it all.
In addition, I am due to move in with a really good friend of mine who I have known for well over a year now care of my job. I know that some people may find it strange that I would move out and into a place with a female friend, I know that some people's immediate thought process is a nudge nudge wink wink scenario. This couldn't be further from the truth, my friend Emma is exactly that and that alone, a friend and a bloody good one at that. Sometimes good friends are hard to find, but with respect to her, I'm glad that I have her in my life along with so many other great people too. I count my lucky stars that I do have each day!
Besides, I'm kind of seeing someone anyway, who with any luck and a massive fingers crossed on it, will work out for me and I'll be a happy bouncy person as a result. She seems really great so far from what I can see and I can only hope that she sees things the same about me. It's very very early days and taking it very slowly, but if the result is good at the end then its definitely worth the wait :-)
So like I say, nothing along those lines at all. I'm just grateful for the opportunity of being able to move in with someone who I get along with, I know well and whom I can trust. Those kind of opportunities are few and far between and need to be snapped up if and when they come about.
The last main changing aspect of my life is that I'm currently in the process of getting the ol' driving license sorted out. Its never been something that I've ever really needed, much as though that surprises people. Yes, I commute in to work, but over the years I have saved over half of what I would shell out for if I was driving in. But now I've come to the conclusion, that I'm 30 next year, it's best to just get it out of the way. I may not bother getting a car or anything straight away, cos again frankly there isn't the need for it, but to have the license gives me flexibility.
I am nervous as hell over....well basically all these changes. They will benefit me immensely granted, but its nerve wracking to have so much going on all at once. Three big potential life defining changes all due to come through in the next handful of months and whilst still balancing everything else too.....hence blurry mindness!!!!
First main thing which is coming up very soon is that there has been a massive reshuffle going on at work which appears to be potentially throwing up new opportunities for me (finally). The only issue I have is that there is every chance of going through interviews and more bloody interviews. I detest interviews with a passion. They irritate me, especially when I'm already in an organisation and I'm being interviewed by people who will have known my skill set and how I work and operate anyhow. I understand that this is necessity in terms of to make it fair and all that garb, but it's kind of aggravating in so many respects too. If it's already proven and shown for months/years just what you are capable of, surely it shouldn't boil down to just an hour or two of yapping? Of course my viewpoint may change immensely if I happen to bag a good role from it, but still!!
My last job had exactly the same way of working but in a much worse fashion. They employed rolling temps constantly and offered on a rare basis full company contracts, but you had to go through an elongated interview process to prove that you were capable of doing EXACTLY THE SAME job as you already were......just plain bizarre to me! We shall just have to see with this exactly how things go.
Second main thing is moving out. I live 30 miles ish away from my workplace and have to commute in every day, not the best thing in the world. I am very likely to finally be moving into Norwich and therefore save on the constant commuting in the new year. I am massively looking forward to this, not only as a time saving utility but also as more and more of my life seems to revolving around the city and it will be fantastic to be in amongst it all.
In addition, I am due to move in with a really good friend of mine who I have known for well over a year now care of my job. I know that some people may find it strange that I would move out and into a place with a female friend, I know that some people's immediate thought process is a nudge nudge wink wink scenario. This couldn't be further from the truth, my friend Emma is exactly that and that alone, a friend and a bloody good one at that. Sometimes good friends are hard to find, but with respect to her, I'm glad that I have her in my life along with so many other great people too. I count my lucky stars that I do have each day!
Besides, I'm kind of seeing someone anyway, who with any luck and a massive fingers crossed on it, will work out for me and I'll be a happy bouncy person as a result. She seems really great so far from what I can see and I can only hope that she sees things the same about me. It's very very early days and taking it very slowly, but if the result is good at the end then its definitely worth the wait :-)
So like I say, nothing along those lines at all. I'm just grateful for the opportunity of being able to move in with someone who I get along with, I know well and whom I can trust. Those kind of opportunities are few and far between and need to be snapped up if and when they come about.
The last main changing aspect of my life is that I'm currently in the process of getting the ol' driving license sorted out. Its never been something that I've ever really needed, much as though that surprises people. Yes, I commute in to work, but over the years I have saved over half of what I would shell out for if I was driving in. But now I've come to the conclusion, that I'm 30 next year, it's best to just get it out of the way. I may not bother getting a car or anything straight away, cos again frankly there isn't the need for it, but to have the license gives me flexibility.
I am nervous as hell over....well basically all these changes. They will benefit me immensely granted, but its nerve wracking to have so much going on all at once. Three big potential life defining changes all due to come through in the next handful of months and whilst still balancing everything else too.....hence blurry mindness!!!!
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Immersed In Music
I went to a gig last night, it was for a band known as Turisas. Most people will not know of them or heard any of their music, but I was watching them and it got me thinking, thinking about music and its impact on me and my life as a whole.
I have a huge variety of music loves, there are a lot which tread into the heavier end of the spectrum and a lot which go the other way too.
In terms of the heavier end of the spectrum, this goes into rock, metal and many of the ranges within this field. A lot of people have dubbed this as loud and aggressive and I've even had it coined to me as scary music. Its interesting to note different peoples concepts and ideas when it comes down to music, especially the metal genre. I mean, why is it considered scary music? Sure its loud, sure theres shouting and screeching and screaming within it, but scary? I'm not too sure. Any music genre could be considered as scary, it's entirely a matter of perception and up to a certain degree the persons mood at the time.
I love my music and what I listen to, naturally (I'm hardly going to hate it now am I?). There are several reasons for this. It's down to the expressions which can be shown through the music itself. Sure metal for example comes across as loud and harsh and aggressive but that perception just doesn't sit with me. Areas of it yes, but contained within it are expressions of love, hate, happiness, ecstasy, sadness and disillusionment amongst many other emotions. Dependant on my mood, I can really connect to what the music is playing and what the band are emoting.
This doesn't stay with the heavier end of the spectrum either, many different genres of music show various themes and emotions which I can connect to, it's why I love it so much. Sometimes there is nothing better to have something heavy and beat driven playing like say, Soulfly. By the same way though, there are many occasions where I can find nothing better than to be listening to music almost minimalistic in its nature and design such as the early ambient works of Aphex Twin or the trance based works of Sasha or Deadmau5. Hell I even own Dido and The Cranberries in my collection amongst many others, like I say I have music tastes which are diverse as anything.
The one thing here is that I don't conform to the normal standard of liking a brand of music and thats it. Some people do and that is fine, but for me I like to branch out and get a taster for other areas too. This does however mean that in terms of conformity, what people see and view of me differs to what is generally considered to be the look for a genre. Example in point, most people to look at me would not immediately think that I liked metal music whatsoever, namely as I have no tattoos or piercings, my hair is short etc. This isn't to deride those who do look like that by any means, some cool people I know have what would be considered to be the atypical look of someone into that style of music. The same applies to other genres too.
But I quite like that though. I quite like the fact that I don't conform to the social norms, the fact that people will be and have been taken by surprise at what I'm listening to at any time. Its what I am, I'm not anything else other than just me.
I have a huge variety of music loves, there are a lot which tread into the heavier end of the spectrum and a lot which go the other way too.
In terms of the heavier end of the spectrum, this goes into rock, metal and many of the ranges within this field. A lot of people have dubbed this as loud and aggressive and I've even had it coined to me as scary music. Its interesting to note different peoples concepts and ideas when it comes down to music, especially the metal genre. I mean, why is it considered scary music? Sure its loud, sure theres shouting and screeching and screaming within it, but scary? I'm not too sure. Any music genre could be considered as scary, it's entirely a matter of perception and up to a certain degree the persons mood at the time.
I love my music and what I listen to, naturally (I'm hardly going to hate it now am I?). There are several reasons for this. It's down to the expressions which can be shown through the music itself. Sure metal for example comes across as loud and harsh and aggressive but that perception just doesn't sit with me. Areas of it yes, but contained within it are expressions of love, hate, happiness, ecstasy, sadness and disillusionment amongst many other emotions. Dependant on my mood, I can really connect to what the music is playing and what the band are emoting.
This doesn't stay with the heavier end of the spectrum either, many different genres of music show various themes and emotions which I can connect to, it's why I love it so much. Sometimes there is nothing better to have something heavy and beat driven playing like say, Soulfly. By the same way though, there are many occasions where I can find nothing better than to be listening to music almost minimalistic in its nature and design such as the early ambient works of Aphex Twin or the trance based works of Sasha or Deadmau5. Hell I even own Dido and The Cranberries in my collection amongst many others, like I say I have music tastes which are diverse as anything.
The one thing here is that I don't conform to the normal standard of liking a brand of music and thats it. Some people do and that is fine, but for me I like to branch out and get a taster for other areas too. This does however mean that in terms of conformity, what people see and view of me differs to what is generally considered to be the look for a genre. Example in point, most people to look at me would not immediately think that I liked metal music whatsoever, namely as I have no tattoos or piercings, my hair is short etc. This isn't to deride those who do look like that by any means, some cool people I know have what would be considered to be the atypical look of someone into that style of music. The same applies to other genres too.
But I quite like that though. I quite like the fact that I don't conform to the social norms, the fact that people will be and have been taken by surprise at what I'm listening to at any time. Its what I am, I'm not anything else other than just me.
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